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Life Or Sentence?Am I serving a punishment of sort,
or might I be part of a conceiled plot?
Could it be that i add to something good?
Perhaps my life is that which no one thought.
As I look back at all that I have done
it looks as though my actions lack in worth.
It could be just that my views deviate,
but why do I feel out of place since birth?
I've never really qualified as a legend,
nor have i that needed to be a star.
I have never possessed what it would take
to be someone or make it very far.
I was not ment to win a Nobel prize,
nor was I men to reveal something new.
Could my sentence be that i set the stage
for other people to do what
PainBlameing the world for all my troubles
gets me out of every excuse
that you have ever thrown at me
breaking the habbits that you set forth
trouble me that they are neverending
should i release the power that you have
or do i stay and pretend that im glad
to be your mindless capable drone
the shackles of you words keep me here
and the thoughts of what those words mean
bleed in and out thru all my fear
should i be alone and deminished
or should i be beaten and slain before you
the tarnished images that you protray
inginte a spark for my will to thrive
my time to embark on a new journey begains
my last words to you will not be
MehYou told brother
That you loved him and mother
For worse or better
Yet you despised my birth
And ruined my self-worth
Memories of you, only aggression
Not a one that is pleasant
None at all.
In my eyes, home was prison
Striving for good, but again
You showed me but anger
No love, even in my manger
My heart broke
It killed me inside
And the tears in my eyes
To you were a joke
Your lack of praise
Made all of my days
Cold and black
The hurt that you gave
Far too late for you to save
You cant take it back
I tried to hope
But with you, I cannot cope
By the time you show care
My life shall b
Why it hurtsWhy it hurts so much to be lonely
it makes you feel like there's something wrong with you,
something beyond your control or outside your knowledge that makes people not want to be around you,
makes people not like you,
this idea challenges what we are and questions who we think we are,
when you have someone, you have someone who you know loves you and cares for you and will be there when you need them,
when you don't, there is a void,
you think constantly that, if you needed someone,
there would be no one there
You can't get used to the pain
The pain is in the void, the lack of something
The void doesn't go away unless it is filled
What You Mean To MeEvery time i talk with you through writing or through dreams,
The world around me disappears and nothing is as it seems.
I close my eyes but there you are,
Pushing me forward and my love so far.
I have never felt this way before,
On which you already know
But i'm writing you this poem for you my dear,
My love I am trying to show.
Whether you see it or not is up to you,
But i have realized my love is so true.
I think about you whenever i can,
Cause in my heart, I know you're my woman.
My feelings for you grow stronger each day,
I hope yours will flow my way.
Although i've heard you say it clear,
Im not too sure, I have this fear
I wonder if you're enjoying
the curvature of her back.
The spine, a row of ossified crowns
crowded and curved around that defining neural superhighway;
that extension cord,
adventurously connecting the visceral
to the peripheral.
The horseshoe crab vertebrae
scuttle to break through skin at your touch;
a defining shiver.
I see your hands
around the rounded hills of her shoulders.
Scapulae jutting out with the extremity of the bend,
like a chicken's wings.
And the bands of these dorsal muscles
stand up like wings,
cast shadows in the dimples of the pelvis that she lifts;
that will fold o
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`anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More