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My Portrait of Self ImageMy portrait of self hateSpans my life from the age of nineDepression and self hatredCame into my life and took overI went form a lively kidTo a depressed suicidal personIn a matter of only a few yearsMy trip of depression left me with nothingBut guilt and a surpassed feelingOf loneliness, I had no one to call my ownI soon wanted to take to the bladeAnd cut deep within myselfWilling the pain to go awayBut I couldn't do itI couldn't even free myself from myOwn contemptMy prison within my mindMy portrait of self hateWent on for yearsTill one day I realized thatPeople do careBut there are those timesWhen I feel blueThat I go back to that timeWhere I wanted nothing moreThan to run awayMy portrait of self hateStill writes itself todayBut there are no longer anySuicidal thoughtsWith that beautiful face of mine
I cant do thisI stood there shakingMy knees were getting weakI didn't know what to saySo i decided not to speakYou took me so off guardWith this news you did shareAnd in astonishment i sat downMy lungs just couldn't get airI buried my head quickly in my handsThrew away my goals and dreamsThat moment I just bawledLook at what you've done to meI'm wrecking into darknessAs I lie here on this floorI'm not sure where I'm goingOr who I am anymoreStanding here shakingAbove the misty skyI know this isn't how to say itI can't do this, so goodbye