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PainBlameing the world for all my troubles
gets me out of every excuse
that you have ever thrown at me
breaking the habbits that you set forth
trouble me that they are neverending
should i release the power that you have
or do i stay and pretend that im glad
to be your mindless capable drone
the shackles of you words keep me here
and the thoughts of what those words mean
bleed in and out thru all my fear
should i be alone and deminished
or should i be beaten and slain before you
the tarnished images that you protray
inginte a spark for my will to thrive
my time to embark on a new journey begains
my last words to you will not be good bye
this moment will not be spoiled by your words
a new sun sets for me this day and the new world awaits.......
MehYou told brother
That you loved him and mother
For worse or better
Yet you despised my birth
And ruined my self-worth
Memories of you, only aggression
Not a one that is pleasant
None at all.
In my eyes, home was prison
Striving for good, but again
You showed me but anger
No love, even in my manger
My heart broke
It killed me inside
And the tears in my eyes
To you were a joke
Your lack of praise
Made all of my days
Cold and black
The hurt that you gave
Far too late for you to save
You cant take it back
I tried to hope
But with you, I cannot cope
By the time you show care
My life shall be spilt here
Upon your floor...
Why it hurtsWhy it hurts so much to be lonely
it makes you feel like there's something wrong with you,
something beyond your control or outside your knowledge that makes people not want to be around you,
makes people not like you,
this idea challenges what we are and questions who we think we are,
when you have someone, you have someone who you know loves you and cares for you and will be there when you need them,
when you don't, there is a void,
you think constantly that, if you needed someone,
there would be no one there
You can't get used to the pain
The pain is in the void, the lack of something
The void doesn't go away unless it is filled
It is only less painful if you ignore it, and then it is moreso when you realise it again
What You Mean To MeEvery time i talk with you through writing or through dreams,
The world around me disappears and nothing is as it seems.
I close my eyes but there you are,
Pushing me forward and my love so far.
I have never felt this way before,
On which you already know
But i'm writing you this poem for you my dear,
My love I am trying to show.
Whether you see it or not is up to you,
But i have realized my love is so true.
I think about you whenever i can,
Cause in my heart, I know you're my woman.
My feelings for you grow stronger each day,
I hope yours will flow my way.
Although i've heard you say it clear,
Im not too sure, I have this fear.
Although our lips have already met
I love to kiss the words you set.
We'll share our jokes, and shed our tears,
We will love each other, in front of our peers.
I've given you my heart it is yours to see,
I love you but do you love me?
StrongholdYour family stays
There for you, day by day
Atleast they should be, you would think
You hate your mother
Honor thy father
Be loyal to them, and worship them as Gods
But the time always comes for life to end
Bringing wounds time can not mend
I'll miss him forever
And think of him daily
he's in a better place
Though I'm still stuck in this space.
Now my mother
The only person I have left
Has nearly passed in her psychotic way
And left me alone
Of course I'll live through it
My sanity will stay in tact
But my emotions will be a wreck
That is a mere matter of fact
Love is a strong emotion
One tied to memory and loss
We love and we lose
The time for it, we don't get to choose
You can never be ready for what is to come
Nor can you simply give up those in your life that are number one.
The only thing you can do is remember them in your heart
No matter the time or situation
It'll make you stronger, and able to move on
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